Recently, I saw the movie “Waiting to Exhale” on cable, and I came to a startling realization. Remember the scene when Whitney Houston (RIP) as Savannah said, “I’m 33 years old…and I still look good!“?!?. Well, it dawned on me that I am actually OLDER than Savannah now. That was a major bug out for me, because I can very clearly remember seeing the film in the movie theater when I was 18 years old. Boy, if I knew then what I know now!
Ava & Viv Scoop Neck Top – Target/ASOS CURVE Midi Pencil Skirt In Jersey-ASOS/Sunglasses – Cool Gal Blue (Similar)
I was uncertain about what my adult life would be like, but thanks to movies and television… I very much knew what I WANTED it to be. I wanted to be married, with two kids living in a Brownstone here in Brooklyn. I wanted a nose ring and big hair JUST LIKE Cree Summer. I wanted a great job that supported myself and my family well that allowed me to be creative. I wanted to have traveled by now, seen more of the world…. At least I got the hair and the nose ring!!
Clutch, Kashmir.VII (As seen here) – Thanks for the freebie!!/Blue Bangle, Thrifted
When opportunities arise to reflect on the past: the desires you had then and the choices you made (good or bad), it’s easy to beat yourself up and wonder what life would be like if you took that left turn in Albuquerque… But the reality is, we have no way of knowing if making different choices would have resulted in a better outcome. For all we know, life could be a lot worse.
I’m not 100% where I want to be at present, I admit that. I’m unemployed, single, and I’ve gained back a lot of the weight I had previously lost. But I can say with all sincerity that my life is GOOD. I have beautiful friends and family that support me, have my back, and make sure my Metrocard is full and my eyebrows are waxed. And I’m in the position where I have the time to really work on this here blog, something that doesn’t make me any money, but makes me very happy… even though my camera is not letting me be great with these photos! Sorry about that, guys!
Wondering what “would-a, could-a, should-a been” is a trap, one I refuse to step in anymore. I’ve done it before, and out of all the choices I regret THAT’S the worst one. I am grateful for the lesson, as it has ultimately made me the woman I am today. I know that I have ample time to find the job, the husband, the kids, the brownstone, and will get much more of the things my heart desires. I am choosing to make the rest of my life, the best of my life! Besides… I am 37 years old, and I STILL look good!!