reliant on one’s own powers and resources rather than those of others.
There are people in the world who, based on appearances, seem to have everything handed to them on a silver platter. Then there are people who work their asses off every single day to obtain a fraction of what they want and need in life. Like most of us, I belong to the latter group, and it’s an affiliation I am unabashedly proud to be a part of.
I’ve worked since I was 14 years old. I am 37 now, so that’s over twenty years of my life spent working, paying my own bills, and taking care of myself. And I wouldn’t have it any other way. While this music therapy post is about being self-reliant, it’s a little different. Different because of my present circumstances.
I’ve been unemployed for a few months now, and everything I’ve acquired in this time (including this very blog) is due to the generosity of friends and family. I am so grateful and appreciative for the help, but for someone like me (someone who was proud of her independence), I have to admit to feeling… powerless. Which isn’t a good feeling to have, I know it. But we’re all friends here, and I want to keep it 100% here. Feeling powerless when someone helps you can lead of resentment, which blocks all forward-moving energy from entering your life, leaving you feeling stuck.
I’ve realized that a lot of the times I’ve encountered this feeling of stagnation, it was because I was feeling powerless about my situation. But one day, I made the daring choice to rethink the circumstances surrounding me. Yes, I am unemployed and dependent on my family for help. But who’s spending the hours job hunting and sending resumes? Me!! Yes, my blog was built on the donated and borrowed funds of friends and family. But who has spent this past month writing each blog post? Me!!
And with that subtle shift in thinking, I was able to tap into an awesome feeling of power. This allowed me to feel nothing but gratitude for the support I’m receiving right now. This support sustains me so that I can change my unemployment situation. It allows me to utilize my energy, my power to… save myself.
For moments when you feel like you will never turn around the circumstances you’re in, and you’re feeling powerless, play this song on full blast at least three times in a row. May it remind you of your inner strength, and ignite your self-reliance.